My Prayer

I love life, and all that comes with it. I'm blessed and I ain't kidding. I can't believe all that I have. I thank you God, for my mom and dad. Its truly amazing that I know the people I do. I hope, even through life struggles, that I will never forget all that You gave to me. It doesn't seem right, and it doesn't seem fair. For You have given me more than I deserve. I pray that someday, all that You've given me will somehow be returned. and certainly, oh certainly I don't want a reward. I am sorry for the things that I've done, or the things that I've said that would ever make You feel unappreciated, for I know what that's like, and I don't like it all. So dear Lord, what I guess I'm saying is, I'm grateful You listen whenever I call.

Hello Guys! I'm Back (:

No, I didn't disappear. I was off in a place they call Costa Rica. It was a great, but certainly tireding experience. I am very glad to be home. I missed the sights and weather of good ol' PA. We did many things down there. For six days straight, I got about seven hours of non-quality sleep. Then up in the morning, we would eat (usually something with rice and eggs), go on a hike somewhere to view the country, and after lunch, do some other exciting activity. I was so sore for most of the week. I know though that I was very fortunate to see and do all the things we did. I'm very thankful that I could go on the trip, and view other cultures, and see magnificent plants and animals. I kept a journal down there so I wrote what we did each day, and funny or exciting things that also occurred. I will either make youtube videos of my day, or type them up on here. Thanks for not giving up on me yet. (:

hasta luego! :)

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I don't try to be the bad guy, no one does.

All I do is try to make people happy. And what ends up happening, is someone else getting hurt. Its not my fault if someone lies to me. I am easily deceived and gullible. I will admit that. So if someone manipulates me, I will do what makes them happy. It sucks being a people pleaser all the time. People will make lies about me, because I don’t always stand up for my self. and it sucks. I guess I get what I deserve. If I don’t stand up for me, then who will? My life isn’t perfect it’s far from. So before you start pointing fingers. You better look beyond what’s on my face. Sure I have a smile. But that doesn’t mean everything’s okay. And don’t be quick to judge. Examine your own life first. Take into account that sometimes the criminal is the victim… 


"God forbid you had to walk a mile in their shoes, then you really might know what it's like to have to choose."
-Everlast

Wasteland

No matter how hard we try or how much we care; we’re always going to be disregarded. Unappreciated. Because you know what? We live in a junk yard. We use things, abuse things, then throw them out. We forget about it, and let it rust. What happened to the days where the people in your life actually mattered? Who’s in your junk yard? Are they buried down deep. I hope not. I hope you didn’t just need them for money, or wanted them for sex. Because. Guess what… They’re a person too. You don’t like it when someone forgets, ignores, or stops caring for you, so why do it to other people. Can’t you see what you’re throwing away? You’ve wasted her. And now she feels like she’s a waste herself. You need to embrace these things. You know the saying, “One’s man trash is another man’s treasure.” Well that’s the same with humans. Don’t screw one over and go onto the next. Make peace with everyone. Nobody should get in the way of your relationships. Keep them separate. You keep one pile over there, and another over here. There’s a reason why people care, and a reason why they give up caring. Don’t be that person that just takes it to the junk yard. Hold on and cherish it. Remember what it was like when you first got it. Apply this to you and your relationships now. I’m tired of feeling like a pile of garbage. 

Things I've learned from Love

• don’t ever trust somebody with everything.
• stay close, but not too close.
• if you ever feel like crying, keep it to yourself.
• nobody really wants to listen to all your problems.
• there’s usually only one person that can make your day better.
• don’t be sad over a heartbreak. now you’re free. move onto someone better.
• if you don’t feel like you’re being treated right, you most likely aren’t.
• it isn’t the big things people do for you, it’s the little things.
• a simple statement can make your day, or week.
• don’t ever say “I love you” until they say it first.
• never get attached. attachment = dependence.
• if you think you miss them after one day, try a week or a month.
• and finally…
• best friends will always come before love.
• love kills, it bites, it breaks and sometimes won’t ever forgive.
• true best friends will stick by forever. through thick and thin. they forgive, and will always love.
• I guess that’s why they say, “your spouse should be your best friend”…